Episode 4, Flex-Time Management: Cutting Away What Gets in the Way, A Podcast

Episode 4, Flex-Time Management: Cutting Away What Gets in the Way, 

A Podcast by Jessica Berck Hensley of Undone Spirit 333

Fair Warning: This podcast delves deep into why the process of making money from my creative journey is a challenge. I offer advice here for you who listen, that helps me stay on track and complete my projects. In my previous podcast, Episode 3: Self-Love, The First Step to Becoming a Better Co-Creator, I discussed my life over the last 15 years. I am 42 years old, and it is May 2021 as I share this podcast. I discuss how I failed to accomplish many different career paths. If you have not listened to that podcast or any of my others, you don’t need to for this to help you stay on track with your creative goals. However, my previous podcasts shed some light on how I came up with the creative process I use now and there may be something of interest for you in those episodes as well.



Before I start, I now see my failures as redirections. The question I ask myself is “Am I willing to take this redirection as a gift or as a curse?”



I choose to see my redirection as a gift today.

Listen to this Podcast by Jessica Berck Hensley of Undone Spirit 333:

Episode 4, Flex-Time Management: Cutting Away What Gets in the Way

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Does a flexible Time Management Schedule work for your Creative Process?

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Tender and Sore, Extinguishing the Flame (Poetry and Prose) A Blog Post on Caring

Poem and Prose on Caring

I've written a poem and prose piece on making peace on caring  If this resonates, I'm interested in your comments.

Tender and Sore (A Poem)

Too close to fly

too far to fall

My third eye

is against the wall


My gut turns

when trust is sour

A flame burns

every hour


I count the time

I spent crying

about some slime

spilt from lying


Truth costs more

in real life

My caring bore

my greatest strife


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Extinguishing the Flame (A Prose Poem)

"I don't care" is another way to say "I'm not interested".

I thought of an argument I had with someone I trusted.

I realized that if I don’t tell them how I feel care is talked of and shown, then they don’t know what I would like from them in terms of showing how they care about me.

I also need to find out what I can say and do to show them I care about them.

Sometimes telling someone “I care” gets me a response like this:

“No one cares what you have to say”.

I decide now that I’ll take them at their word, and I will let them fall on their own. I will not take care of them; I will let life do so.

If a person shows me, they are only interested in themself and what I can give them, then I will cut them out of my life as they are not interested in the best, I have to offer them.

I give my heart and soul because I want to help people. I have genuine reasons and selfish reasons why I do it. When I give to people, I feel needed and wanted. I know that if my selfish reasons are at the root of why I give in a relationship or friendship, then it’s not as valuable as I thought.

However, I know the main reason for why I give so much to others, especially in the form of sharing about my life through writing and podcasting, is because I don’t like feeling alone when I go through tough situations. I feel like if they see that I’ve been through what they’re going through, then they can get though it with less pain then I did.

In this next example, I’m speaking of friendship and on how things can go well as that is what I know currently:

I know in some friendships I’ve made; I’ve known the person for years and we’ve helped each other with problems we each face. Then we’ll have a large disagreement on something personal to me. The person will have a difference of viewpoint from mine that’s hard to bounce back from. I’ve expressed my concerns about how I felt they treated me and the problem I faced, and it worked out better then I could have hoped. The situation was resolved and we each learned something about ourselves.

I see giving care this way:

If I think of care as interest, then a person who tells me or shows me they don’t care about me is uninterested in me and is no longer worth investing my time in being friends with them.

I’m not interested in how they feel or think about me cutting them loose once they prove to me that they are no longer worth investing my energy into.

I am free to meet new people who are interested in me giving my care and consideration to them.

I lit the flame and it’s up to me to put it out.

Writing an essay based on a poem: A creative writing exercise, a blog post

I've got a poem based on my thoughts and feelings about a current relationship to use as a basis on a longer piece. I've written an essay based on the poem below.

After reading the poem and essay, I tell you how I wrote my poem and essay. Ready? Here I go!

Resolve

My healing

began

as a chance

on life and love

with

one other

I allowed

myself to

fall for

your soul

to give me

love

and for me

to give love

to you

Connecting

to my trauma

feeling my

broken dreams

from your

spilt pain

I forgive

myself

and

I forgive

you

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Resolution

My healing began as a chance on life and love with one other. Alone and wanting to experience a deeper connection with a man I made a decision that changed my life forever once more. I chose to visit the bar scene in my new town despite having a history with unsuccessful drinking and dating.

I allowed myself to fall for a man who shook my soul. I wanted him to give me his love. I wanted to experience my soul's desire to connect with a man through loving him.

I awakened my old wounds of trauma through his trauma; I shook his hand and made eye contact. His tears revealed his heart to my eyes and my heart felt at home with his through the touch of his hand. 

I began feeling my broken dreams from his spilt pain. In each glass I drank, I felt he poured his heart and reached mine all night.

I forgive myself for trying to love him when he wasn't ready. And I forgive him for choosing to love me and let me go.

Now I have a decision to make. I know letting go of the dream of love is easy. Accepting the truth of love is painful because I haven't experienced it the way I want it to be.

I'm a virgin at 42. He had his concept of me before he knew and it changed after he found out. I believe I'm not rejected because I'm a virgin. I'm rejected because he may be afraid to reclaim his virginity.

So many people have lost it. And so few actually enjoyed their first time or so it seems. I'm not sure of his story. I'm more certain of mine.

All my life I wanted people to tell me "I believe you". As a person who who has experienced sexual abuse from females in my past, I want people to believe me when I say "I'm straight". Sexual experiences with women feel unnatural to me just like a lesbian having sex with a man feels unnatural to her. This explanation is clear and still people question why I'm a virgin.

It's painful because it beings up all of my doubts about what I know to be true about love. I know my parents have been married for over 40 years and they love each other just as much as they did when they first met. I have a desire for a relationship just as satisfying and I know living with and loving a man is apart of my vision.

I know I'm taking a risk here telling people on my blog that I have trouble believing in myself. I'm taking a risk by accepting the truth of taking a chance on love with someone who shakes up my world. A truth that involves the possibility of never being able to speak to my Twin Flame again and only loving him through the dream state. Understanding that if I choose to love someone else, he will love someone other then me too.

I feel my journey to healing started by learning how to deal with what comes from the earthquake of meeting a soul like no one else I've ever met.

I write and find resolution through healing on my own.

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Now let me break down how I did this. Ready? Here I go!

I was confused about my thoughts and feelings about Twinflameship. I felt like I needed to start setting boundaries with others to protect myself. Boundaries in the dream state as well as the physical state.

I've been struggling to make peace with where things in my love life are at this time. I needed to make a summary of thoughts and feelings to find where I need to go next

I set a short word limit for my poem. 280 characters. This is the word limit on the Twitter App at this moment in time, in 2021. Any short count will do though.

Then I took each stanza and used it as the first sentence. I used each stanza to build a paragraph. Then once all those were used up, I improvised and wrote further to figure out my solution to end the confusion on this Twinflameship.

I feel this method can be used for fiction as well. Pick a character to follow or a plot point to follow and see where it takes your writing. The solution to the confusion of where your story wants to take you may be waiting in an essay like this one.

I know my solution to my confusion is not easy to take, but since I wrote it clear and direct, I can undertand it and take it in so I can set the boundaries in my life with anyone I cross in the dream state or in physical life.

If you try this out, let me know in the comments below if it works for you. 

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Thanks for listening!